Thursday, September 27, 2012

I have been to hell but I return to Love!!!

I have been M.I.A. for a moment going through my ordeals of torments with my family and learning to truth of my past. I am finding out and learning how to stand in my own space!!!

If this is what I need to do to learn who I am so be it. Bring on the heart ache. I have learn and meet beautiful people in the processing, caring people and the ones who was giving to me at birth I have learn are poison to me and had to learn and find out the hard I have to let go and leave these people be. Going through a divorce isn't always easy as well having to find out who you are without this person in your life can also be exciting as well, but doing it alone is hard.

I am not going to lie. I have cried so many nights and have had so many divine conversions with God and this is when I realize how special I am. Is when I can hear God respond to me. It warms my heart my body and my spirit. I am gifted. I am a leader. I am a Shepard. I am a Light Worker. I am and I will heal.

God wouldn't get me challenges that he knew I wouldn't be able to succeed. I have be to able to get through this and get through it with dignity and grace. After all I have been through I could be bitter, I could be angry but I am not. Instead I am grateful, I am loving, I am caring, I will continue to practice Metta ever where I go. Metta means Kindness in Sanskrit.

Below is a link of the Metta Sutra of the Budha's words of Kindness of you are interested in reading : http://dharma.ncf.ca/introduction/sutras/metta-sutra.html

My life is not easy as long as I have the people that is still within it that are selfish, mean and ugly it will continue to be as it is. I realize today as much as I love for my own health I have to let them go. I have had a relationship with myself for 33 years and out of the 33 years I have made great sacrifices now it is time for me to do for myself.

In this year I have learn to fall in love with myself and love others more. Cry and not be a shame for what I am crying for and what I am feeling. I have learned to co- exist with myself as a human- being and loving every minute of it!

I have been to my personal hell but I have returned to Love!!!
Thank you for reading ... Namaste....