There are some things that are even out of my understanding and scare the hell out of me, and others that just break my heart. I live my life as the day come, I love with no doubt, and live to not exist. I know something is changing inside me. I can feel it shifting, and I can't even explain but I won't deny it however I will try to understand it. That is just how I am. I feel it isn't my place to pass judgement on another person no matter how old my families money is, or what social status my sister or family have at his or her church.
If you belong to a religious background I say good for you. I believe religion is good for some people. I believe in God and have a beautiful relationship with my Heavenly Father my place of worship is where I see fit, wherever I kneel and pray. Trust me I did it a lot especially as being a Energy Healer. I pray before and after I lay my hands on someone. When I wake up before I go to bed, silent ones from friends and loved ones, again when I see accidents on the side of the roads, before I do my absentee healing at night and before I go to sleep at night for any who don't know how to pray for themselves.
All I pray for is the Strength and Courage to show others and to let me lead by example to inspire the lives I touch with my Heavenly Father's Loving energy. My Great-Grand Mother raised me as a Golden Child sometimes I think they made a mistake. Other times I have to keep my eyes forward and keep moving and remember God gave his children a gift, and that was the path they choose, and I will continue to keep walking mine with our without the people I loved for so long who I called my family and friends. My spirit was given a job before I was born into this existence.
My mentor helped me realize as well I'm not like other Psychic's. I am not here to make a believer out of anyone. I am here to relieve your pain and suffering. People will believe what they want to believe either if they was conditioned by a group setting, or if that is what they was taught. I was raised as I am to listen to my heart first that is how the great Divine speaks to me. The heart is the one place the devil can't get its hands on and can not be manipulated. So when I feel lost to listen to my heart and God will speak to me.
I have never been lost I can honestly say because I have never stopped listening. I usually get in trouble when I make decision with my mind instead of following my intuition. God speaks to us all. Some of us just don't know how to listen. Will we ever get to that place again where are hearts(spirit) lead the way?