Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Divorce, Realization, Awaking for Me

         Being  a Psychic I should have saw it coming right? My marriage coming to an end. The years of emotional abuse. I should of saw that my husband wasn't sexually attractive to me any more. The biggest low blow I should of saw that he didn't love me, and as he said he never did love me. Ouch!!!
           I am human just like the next the person. Yes? I was just made a little different. For once in my life I just wanted some normalcy, and my husband gave me that, I guess everything isn't what it looks like. In order to get my normalcy I alter myself by taking a prescription drug called Lithium Carbonate ER which did alter my psychic abilities and made me blind so I couldn't see the truth.

           So the truth in it all I did this to myself. There was nothing wrong with me the how I was before the medication. Why I did it? I wish I could take it all back. Will I do it again. Never. As I sit here heart broken alone sharing my story about my path of stupidity. I also look for my new path of the door that just opened for my for I must find a way to move on to heal.

            My husband is  a lot at fault as well he married me and he never loved me. and we have been married for 2 and a half years now. I wanted to be loved unconditionally and have a family, but instead I had a marriage that wasn't included with a loving husband which makes my marriage a lie.
Which is only half the story. If I am a business deal should I have a contract or a negotiation? An Irish man who marriages an American girl who had other intention with no permanent Visa to stay in the U.S. he can go back where he came from. We have enough dogs here in the states to go around.
He can go back to Ireland and go live with his Mamma if all I care. Fuck what he is going through.

This little born Psychic- Intuitive woman is taking her power back and she is bring hell with her.

Learn from my mistake. Love and embrace who you are God made you that way for a reason.
I am 100% me again, I have a foot in both realities and I wouldn't have it any other way. I just don't get to sleep the way how I use too anymore, but my path is bright and I'm smiling and I have a whole lot of dancing to do!

Thank you for reading