Thursday, October 5, 2017

The gift that keeps on giving!

My little boy is only three years old and he will be 4 in December. He isn't a normal child but then again what is exactly normal? My Mom said I was a easy child. I just got it and understood a lot of things at his age that adults was still attempting to grasps. I did what more people feared. I grew and was always excited for what would come next with growth and change. 

People have asked me why the things that are so hard for is so easy for me to do? I just do what needs to be done, it feels and seems so easy but I had to learn why change and growth is so hard for others. I never allow myself to become comfortable or settle. I run on a different frequency so I don't know if I can ever settle or just be comfortable and be still. 

My parents noticed that Jaxon my toddler has a lot of the same characteristics that I carry. I am a Golden and he is a Golden- Crystal so I will have my hands full. My son surprises a lot of people and the questions began that is hard for me to answer. I just started to answer with the truth, the truth is, he has been doing this for a long time. Jaxon knows things that he was never taught in this life time however he did it in another life. 

The thing about gifted children is they choose their parents. I wasn't suppose to be able to have children and he came to me in my dreams for over a  year in 2011, I told my ex-husband back then that a child had choose me to bring him into this life time and he was not his father, that was enough to know we was going to be getting a divorce and after my divorce was finally, my son was conceived. 

For so long, I assumed I was cursed and was lost of my purpose because I couldn't get to were I wanted to be, only to find out later I was always on the right path and I so desperately trying to jump, but Motherhood has showed me my destination where this path will lead me. 

Babies, all babies are blessings. A woman and her Mother came to me for guidance and the woman(daughter) was conflicted about her adoption. She felt unwanted and abandoned. I told her truth. She was never a mistake, she was never not wanted, and her birth Mother served her purpose in life, she birthed a beautiful baby girl and gave another woman the gift of Motherhood that would love this child she birthed unconditionally like she was her very own flesh and blood. I also advised her not to look for her birth Mother because she was already with her and her birth Mother is very proud knowing that bringing her into this world was the best decision she made and is at peace. She knows she gave this world a beautiful gift, the existence of her daughter.

Thank you 

Wednesday, September 20, 2017

Paranormal Survivors

Before my son was born I was one hot little number and always on the go. I was getting a divorce, learning who I was all over again with this new identity, owning my sexuality, falling in love with myself all over again along with embracing and learning my gifts. To a lot of people I made it look easy and graceful. I did my affirmations every morning told myself it was going to be okay. Cried (released) when I needed to and danced (literally) whenever I felt like it.

Dealing with the "Normal" can be rough and take a lot out of you. Adding the "Paranormal" on top of the normal is a different ball game, it's exhausting! Some psychics are born this way, others had a traumatic or a spiritual experience that has awakening their extra sensory to their new found gift/curse. I was born with my gifts and sometimes when you can't catch a break it does feel like a curse. which is the subject I am getting to.

"Paranormal Survivors" These are people that had a normal life until they moved into their dream homes or purchased an object with spiritual attachment and had the worst experience with negative/demonic entities. Families always (hoping) get someone to step in and help them get rid of the entities however forget about the emotional trauma that comes with the experience like PTSD.
My biggest concern is the children. If you are anyone you know have experienced an traumatic experience with the paranormal, I strongly advise to seek out help. If you don't feel comfortable with a therapist then seek out a spiritual counselor/ psychic counselor. First thing first, they can make you see and feel that you are NOT crazy, and you how to cope and get off any medication. Hiding away isn't going to fix it but talking about it will. If you have any questions or will like to know where to begin just leave a comment.

With my lifetime of experience with the Paranormal, I feel I should be in a padded room and a straight jacket but someone (my mentor) came into my life (she is psychic) and saved me from my turmoil. If it wasn't for her I wouldn't have been able to figure out why my entire body would get oven hot. Found out I am a energy healer and being next to someone sick, the universe is ready to use me as a tool to heal the sick but I will save that for another story.    

Thank you for reading

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Golden Mother her Golden- Crystal Child

I haven't made a post since February of 2017 and I believe I am well over due for one.

I became a "single Mother" in 2013 to a beautiful little boy who is now walking, talking and running the house alone with telling me I am mean. Now I am just trying to take one day at a time and not lose myself in the process.

Along the way I have learn how to get by without struggling so bad and still have fun. I guess the way how I handled our new life my little guy continues to grow and flourish with joy and excitement. I have a happy boy! It took me a while to understand that one statement " You have a happy boy!" It saddens me with the thought of not all children are blessed with a cheerful environment.

Motherhood isn't easy and it's also the best unpaid job I have ever had, and my little boy Jaxon couldn't have came at a better time in my life with me being a "Golden Adult". Now I have come to terms and embraced myself for who and what I am, I could now help my son grow as a Gifted as well without bias.

Jaxon is now a adventurous three year old that will be four on December 13th. His life will be celebrated every year as a form of appreciation of choosing me to be his Mother. Gifted children chooses their parents. I chose my Mother and my Father had the correct DNA match. Jaxon came to me in a dream/vision and I couldn't believe it until I saw him on the screen bouncing around and listening to his heart beat. I assumed he was an Indigo Child under one night he was sleeping and I shifted my awareness and saw Gold and Crystals. My boy is a Golden-Crystal Child so my hands will be full and I will be patient. Gifted children and adults work on a different frequency and are very sensitive of the reactions from they loved ones, which now makes me SUPER over protected so he doesn't have to shield or hide himself. It's easy for us to become lost within our emotions and fall into depression when the ones who we love the most and hurt us the worst. 

Thank you for reading...

Sunday, February 16, 2014

New Job: Motherhood!!!

A lot has changed in a year. All for the better that is! This year 2014 I brought my New Year in with my beautiful new born baby boy Jaxon Alexander. 

I have shed blood, sweat, tears,hard ships, betrayal, and heartbreak. To get to where I am. The place where I am today is unconditionally loved and I can honestly love unconditionally in return and also not lose myself. Instead this love gives me the option to grow, be happy, and enjoy being content. This is my view and definition on Motherhood for me! 

I wouldn't change any of it for the world! I would like to share my last year with everyone but just not tonight I will like to save it for another day. I have three weeks left of maternity leave. So I still have some time between spit up, dirty diapers, coos, and baby laughter! 



Friday, January 25, 2013

The Plans for Me?

I love when ever I speak to my dear friend and mentor she always has to remind me that God has great plans for you! Also I am told "they have plans for you!" Who the hell is they? and what is this plan?"

Overwhelming is the feeling I get when I feel like I am not on the right track and being told I have work to do as a "chosen" doesn't help at all as well. I am swarmed with information and things that need to be done however the master question to is master plan is; How do I get there?

I am just a banking working in Corporate America and I know I don't belong there. I feel lie I should be teaching but teaching what I have not been attuned for yet?!?! Man I have issues.

I am a natural born healer, I have a gift called Laying on hands which I had to go through something they call Reiki meaning "Life Force" in Japanese in order to have a certificate so I can use my gift to help people. However finding out that when I do laying on hands I am also doing what they call psychic surgery. The people who I lay hands on always ask me what am I because that does feel like Reiki. I understand my energy is different and people can feel that too, however I don't like to stand out to much. I like to try to fit in as much as possible.

I have been having visions of snakes. A rattle snake to be exact. In my dreams I handle it without being bit  I feel like this snake is a part of me. My friend mention to me the another day I am going through another awaking called Kundalini and ask me have I been seeing snakes? I was shock and told her I thought I was going mad! The Plan". I am currently blind in one eye because in spiritual terms I am shedding skin and when a snake sheds skin it is temporarily blinded. What's next in line?

I am grateful and I love my life it's just once I get settled and comfortable I start going through another change. I have been thinking about using my gifts as a source of income and start doing what I was born to do however once again how do I begin? I also will like to open a Yoga Wellness Healing Center. Once again how do I began. So today I will research with my good eye to take that next step on my path.

Thank you for reading Namaste... 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Starting of the New Year and I'm learning !

I brought in the New Year in song in dance and in good cheer with someone who's intentions wasn't good and I take it as a blessing in disguise for what had happened next. A good friend who lives in the London always said "Shree every happens for a reason!" I am truly blessed and honored to have Beatrice Elder in my life. She said I give her too much credit looking. I have a eidetic memory and I can see the snap shot of the girl who I was back then and see the spiritual being who I have evolve into today! I couldn't have done it without her encouragement. 

I can feel it!!! I can feel the presence of my God surround me engulfing me and as I stand with arms wide open I welcome them with sweet warm embrace! Namaste My Father and Great Mother. 

It's hard to believe just a few days ago I was surround by feeling of pain of betrayal and the absence of my precious feline Diamond. For some reason I can't be sad. I have someone with me that bring and secured feeling that at the end everything will be okay. They have Big Plans for me!

I can understand that, these big plans I am starting to think, just what are they exactly? I really need to find my cat and someone to sew on my buttons! 

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Just embrace!

When I decided to live my life openly along Norms as what I am. It has been a bit of a challenge. I know I will be coming into my full power soon, and with the new shift just happening. That was pretty freaky! One moment I'm sitting in my room next moment I'm in a dark space. Boy the Mayans was genius's as far as the world coming to an end, who came up to that idea?

Their is so much I want to do as who I am I have so much to offer to the world. The love of my life wants nothing more but to support me in everything I do. So when I tell him I want to spend time in Africa and heal people and give blessings. Now my focus for this year is to practice love with no holding back and not to allow anyone or anything to get in my way. With JD at my side I know I can with be invincible he is my heart and home is where the heart is, love conquers all, love is what heal and God is love. 

I am sitting here my body feels bad because I drank alcohol last night now I need to replenish. My vessel is not made like most norms as well. I eat food and not product if I do my body doesn't response well. If can feel the natural functions of my body of the fuel I put within it. I don't know what I am I just say I am me and I am what I always wanted to be. Loved unconditionally in 2013! 
Embrace who you are not what you are.