Sunday, February 16, 2014

New Job: Motherhood!!!

A lot has changed in a year. All for the better that is! This year 2014 I brought my New Year in with my beautiful new born baby boy Jaxon Alexander. 

I have shed blood, sweat, tears,hard ships, betrayal, and heartbreak. To get to where I am. The place where I am today is unconditionally loved and I can honestly love unconditionally in return and also not lose myself. Instead this love gives me the option to grow, be happy, and enjoy being content. This is my view and definition on Motherhood for me! 

I wouldn't change any of it for the world! I would like to share my last year with everyone but just not tonight I will like to save it for another day. I have three weeks left of maternity leave. So I still have some time between spit up, dirty diapers, coos, and baby laughter! 



Friday, January 25, 2013

The Plans for Me?

I love when ever I speak to my dear friend and mentor she always has to remind me that God has great plans for you! Also I am told "they have plans for you!" Who the hell is they? and what is this plan?"

Overwhelming is the feeling I get when I feel like I am not on the right track and being told I have work to do as a "chosen" doesn't help at all as well. I am swarmed with information and things that need to be done however the master question to is master plan is; How do I get there?

I am just a banking working in Corporate America and I know I don't belong there. I feel lie I should be teaching but teaching what I have not been attuned for yet?!?! Man I have issues.

I am a natural born healer, I have a gift called Laying on hands which I had to go through something they call Reiki meaning "Life Force" in Japanese in order to have a certificate so I can use my gift to help people. However finding out that when I do laying on hands I am also doing what they call psychic surgery. The people who I lay hands on always ask me what am I because that does feel like Reiki. I understand my energy is different and people can feel that too, however I don't like to stand out to much. I like to try to fit in as much as possible.

I have been having visions of snakes. A rattle snake to be exact. In my dreams I handle it without being bit  I feel like this snake is a part of me. My friend mention to me the another day I am going through another awaking called Kundalini and ask me have I been seeing snakes? I was shock and told her I thought I was going mad! The Plan". I am currently blind in one eye because in spiritual terms I am shedding skin and when a snake sheds skin it is temporarily blinded. What's next in line?

I am grateful and I love my life it's just once I get settled and comfortable I start going through another change. I have been thinking about using my gifts as a source of income and start doing what I was born to do however once again how do I begin? I also will like to open a Yoga Wellness Healing Center. Once again how do I began. So today I will research with my good eye to take that next step on my path.

Thank you for reading Namaste... 

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

Starting of the New Year and I'm learning !

I brought in the New Year in song in dance and in good cheer with someone who's intentions wasn't good and I take it as a blessing in disguise for what had happened next. A good friend who lives in the London always said "Shree every happens for a reason!" I am truly blessed and honored to have Beatrice Elder in my life. She said I give her too much credit looking. I have a eidetic memory and I can see the snap shot of the girl who I was back then and see the spiritual being who I have evolve into today! I couldn't have done it without her encouragement. 

I can feel it!!! I can feel the presence of my God surround me engulfing me and as I stand with arms wide open I welcome them with sweet warm embrace! Namaste My Father and Great Mother. 

It's hard to believe just a few days ago I was surround by feeling of pain of betrayal and the absence of my precious feline Diamond. For some reason I can't be sad. I have someone with me that bring and secured feeling that at the end everything will be okay. They have Big Plans for me!

I can understand that, these big plans I am starting to think, just what are they exactly? I really need to find my cat and someone to sew on my buttons! 

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Just embrace!

When I decided to live my life openly along Norms as what I am. It has been a bit of a challenge. I know I will be coming into my full power soon, and with the new shift just happening. That was pretty freaky! One moment I'm sitting in my room next moment I'm in a dark space. Boy the Mayans was genius's as far as the world coming to an end, who came up to that idea?

Their is so much I want to do as who I am I have so much to offer to the world. The love of my life wants nothing more but to support me in everything I do. So when I tell him I want to spend time in Africa and heal people and give blessings. Now my focus for this year is to practice love with no holding back and not to allow anyone or anything to get in my way. With JD at my side I know I can with be invincible he is my heart and home is where the heart is, love conquers all, love is what heal and God is love. 

I am sitting here my body feels bad because I drank alcohol last night now I need to replenish. My vessel is not made like most norms as well. I eat food and not product if I do my body doesn't response well. If can feel the natural functions of my body of the fuel I put within it. I don't know what I am I just say I am me and I am what I always wanted to be. Loved unconditionally in 2013! 
Embrace who you are not what you are.


Sunday, December 30, 2012

Just a vision or something more

The other day I was siting at my desk at Corporate America I got the sensation to go home to go home where it all started. To now where there the suffering. I have an amazing gift called laying on hands. My hands heat up and my body will sometimes heat up as well when something or someones is ill or needs to be healed, however I took it as confirmation as to what I was getting from my vision I was having at my desk at work.

My vision was to go back to what they call The Mother Land, Africa! I must go back to heal and teach others the amazing practice to heal as well. I want to place healing centers around the world so other people can become attune and become teachers and teach others to heal. There is a protocol call that comes with this practice to make sure the person have the right intention I want to work with the people with the pure of hearts with no egos.

Was it just a vision? I sure hope it was something more, I want to make it happen.

Monday, October 15, 2012

Our Purpose......

Everyone has a purpose in life whether they believe it or not, even if it seems so small or if you get overwhelm by how big it seems and you don't know where to begin to start. It doesn't matter as long as you start and begin somewhere, and don't be afraid to ask for help because the people that are surround around you that has put up with your bullshit that has been there through thick and thin has been put there for a reason. Not to judge but to love you unconditionally and to live this journey with you till the end! So just open your arms wide for an warm embrace and don't stay angry long over something small and petty. We our not always promise tomorrow so just live for today with love and kindness!

Thank you for reading.....

Thursday, September 27, 2012

I have been to hell but I return to Love!!!

I have been M.I.A. for a moment going through my ordeals of torments with my family and learning to truth of my past. I am finding out and learning how to stand in my own space!!!

If this is what I need to do to learn who I am so be it. Bring on the heart ache. I have learn and meet beautiful people in the processing, caring people and the ones who was giving to me at birth I have learn are poison to me and had to learn and find out the hard I have to let go and leave these people be. Going through a divorce isn't always easy as well having to find out who you are without this person in your life can also be exciting as well, but doing it alone is hard.

I am not going to lie. I have cried so many nights and have had so many divine conversions with God and this is when I realize how special I am. Is when I can hear God respond to me. It warms my heart my body and my spirit. I am gifted. I am a leader. I am a Shepard. I am a Light Worker. I am and I will heal.

God wouldn't get me challenges that he knew I wouldn't be able to succeed. I have be to able to get through this and get through it with dignity and grace. After all I have been through I could be bitter, I could be angry but I am not. Instead I am grateful, I am loving, I am caring, I will continue to practice Metta ever where I go. Metta means Kindness in Sanskrit.

Below is a link of the Metta Sutra of the Budha's words of Kindness of you are interested in reading :

My life is not easy as long as I have the people that is still within it that are selfish, mean and ugly it will continue to be as it is. I realize today as much as I love for my own health I have to let them go. I have had a relationship with myself for 33 years and out of the 33 years I have made great sacrifices now it is time for me to do for myself.

In this year I have learn to fall in love with myself and love others more. Cry and not be a shame for what I am crying for and what I am feeling. I have learned to co- exist with myself as a human- being and loving every minute of it!

I have been to my personal hell but I have returned to Love!!!
Thank you for reading ... Namaste....